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It is amazing that websites like these dont kick people like me off...Its been almost 7 months since I last posted. Oops!

An update on the girls. Kati and Elli are now 19 months old and full blown toddlers. They walk, run, yell, and are beginning to have opinions. It's crazy. The girls talk all of the time. They proudly declare "I poop!" everytime they pee or poop in their diaper. When they are hungry they yell "bite" and then tell you if they want "pretzel" "cereals" or "cackers." They can ask for "wawer" "juice" or "molk". They call each other "siser" and pull my shirt up... say "shh...boby sweeping" and then put my shirt back down. They are always saying "uh-oh" when concerned about something. They have learned to say "sawey" when they make their sister cry and then give hugs. They declare "I sit" whenever they sit down and command "mama sit" and "dada sit" when they want us to sit down. They have gotten pretty good at using their manners saying "pwease" and "dank dou." They even say "scuse scuse " when they want through and you are in their way. They know the sounds of about 15 animals and can identify most of them by name when shown a picture. However, ducks say "duck duck" and cows are "moos." All circles are "bawls" and they can pick up a square block if asked to do so but will not call it a square. Whenever someone is leaving the say "bye bye, see ya." Oh my, I know there is more ("pick up," "amen/albia," "stairs," "boots," "shoes," "dacket," "pants," "nose," "eyes," "hair," "bartbart (barrette)," "bwush," "bwath," "potty," "bedicine (medicine)," "eat," "bib," "bahna (banana)," "george," "byne (ryne)," etc.)... and much more. But this will atleast give you a sense of how talkative the girls have become.

Kati is becoming the "big sister." She is constantly looking out for Elli. Making sure that Elli gets everything she has, telling me when Elli needs a "butt change," and is always trying to cuddle her.

Elli is our little daredevil. She realized the dog bed was near her picnic table, so she decided to climb up on the seat and jump onto the dog bed. She thought it was hilarious and did it about 20 more times. She also was climbing on the dinning room chairs and fell, causing a huge bruise on her forhead. Before it was even done forming, she was trying to climb on the chairs again.

Both of the girls are excited about the baby. They love to pull up my shirt and give Nathanael kisses. Then they pull my shirt down and say "shh...baby sweeping." I hope they are this excited when he comes home.

I can't wait to hold our baby boy in my arms. I worry about him so much and wish i could hold him and kiss every part of his perfect little body. I know he is coming home in 9 weeks or so, but these last two weeks have been so hard. At my 30 week appointment (tues) I found out that I was measuring 36 weeks. Which was a huge difference from where I had been measuring. I had grown 11cm in 4 weeks. This coused my doctor to worry and set up an ultrasound for the following Friday (10 days later).

Like an idiot I immediately came home and researched what could be causing me to measure so big. The results were disheartening to say the least. I cried. Then I began to worry. Thankfully, Nathanael kept moving and kicking me reminding me he was there and just fine. I had never been so happy to be kept awake at 2am by his little movements.

Eventually Friday came. We went to the doctor. while in the waiting room I was so anxious that I vomitted. Matt and I were so nervous. We went into the ultrasound room. My blood pressure was great but I had lost 3 pounds since my last visit. The doctor came in, she showed us Nathanael. He looked so cute. He has a perfect little button nose. His head measured 35 weeks, his torso measured 34 weeks...looking good. He was measuring in big for his age, but that was fine. CHecked his heart. 4 chambers beating at about 132 bpm. perfect. He has kidneys, a healthy umbelical cord, and all of his appendages. Then the doctor measured his femur. Then she remeasured his femur. 28 weeks. Significantly shorter than it should be.

We got one answer, I was measuring big because nathanael is big, but were left with dozens more. What does it mean to have a short femur measurement? What casues this? How will this effect our baby after birth? etc.

The doctor said Nathanael looks healthy but that she was concerned about the measurements not matching and that she thought it necessary for us to see a specialist. Her nurse would make the appointment. Well, the other doctor's office was busy, the nurse had to leave a message. We left knowing nothing. Not knowing what was wrong with our baby, not knowing when we might find out.

It wasn't until 5 hours later that we found out we were being sent to the Maternal-Fetal Medicine Center at St. Vincent's Womens Hospital up in Carmel, Indianaand that we had to wait until the following Friday (7 more days) to be seen. This center focuses on high risk pregnancies. I thought my pregnancy was going well this time, guess not. Then I began to read information on their website. This caused me to worry more. I just want to know what is going on with my baby!

Why do I have to wait...don't medical professionals know how hard it is to wait. To know nothing. to worry...

Hopefully we will get some answers this week.

Year One Complete

The girls turned one 2 weeks ago. It is hard to imagine that they were born only a year ago. they have grown so very much. Kati is only 5 steps away from being a bonafide walker. Elli is beginning to let go of the furniture when moving around the living room. They are both beginning to get their first molars.

So much to say...but I can't seem to get the words out. I guess I will try again later. sorry.